I wrote a few weeks ago about my playlist in my music that has songs that capture pieces of my faith life. One of those songs is by Amanda Opelt from her album “Seven Songs” which are seven songs about the seven sacraments of the Roman Catholic Church. It is a stunning album but the one song that I keep going back to and the song that is deeply speaking to me in this time is about Ordination/Holy Orders and is entitled simply “Go”. Take a listen
Some fires don’t light, no matter a million match strikesGo (Holy Orders) by Amanda Opelt
Some coals won’t die, burning hot and red through the night
Do I have what it takes, can I pull it together or will I break?
I don’t know, I just don’t know, will I stay or will I go?
Lend me their hands Father when I can’t understand
Would you save me when I say amen and maybe
Do I have what it takes, can you water a mustard seed of faith?
Will it wilt, or will I grow? I don’t know, I just don’t know
He who waits, watching the weather, watching the weather will not sow
She will fear, failing to figure, knowing the path the wind will blow
I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know
But I will go, I will go, I will go
Do I have what it takes, can you pull me together or will I break?
Will I wait, or will I sow? Oh, God knows. Oh God knows.
This song captures so much for me about what it means to be called into this vocation. There are periods where some fires don’t light and other times when everything is going strong. There are times of full confidence that I am on the right path and times of deep questioning. Just like everyone else I long to know what the future holds but have to simply walk each day in the faith trusting that God is with us/me and that God is for us/me. As Ms Opelt closes the song, “O God knows. O God knows.”
The picture today was actually taken by one of my kids this morning while walking Scout. Simple chalk words on the sidewalk. A proclamation, a prayer, a sermon for our time. Much like ministry it was put out in the hope that it would connect with someone. And it did for at least two people. O God knows. O God knows.